Okay so here is the million dollar question for me.
"If God can do amazing things with someone who is giving God about 50-70% of themselves, what can He do if someone is giving 100%?"
Well it has only taken 28 almost 29 years of my life to get to this point, but now I am officially here. I have been that "GUY" who has given 50-70% my whole life. I have learned to say the right things, appear to act the right way, and even look a certain way. In spite of all that God has used me and allowed me to do amazing things for Him. The problem with that is he has used me in spite of me not giving him what He deserves, ALL OF ME!! I can't even get my hands around what it would look like to give God 100% of me. To actually give God my first and last thought. To give Him my future and my past. To give Him my wife and children. To give Him my financial stress and my financial BLESSINGS. To give Him my thoughts and my speech. To allow Him to guide my steps. To give Him every decision that I have to make, which leads me to tonight.
So tonight I had a friend share with me how he felt God telling him that we should not purchase the van we purchased but he didn't say anything. For those of you who don't know or haven't read all mine and my wife's blogs, we have battle a season of financial struggles and a crazy journey of faith. Well we are selling our house and moving back to Wilmington and we would be practically debt free outside of a car payment and student loans. Then I wrecked our Suburban and with our gap insurance we would have been out of a car payment. My friend told me about an older mini-van we could get for 3000 and not have a car payment but I was afraid of buying an older van with no warranty and gap insurance or in other words I wanted something newer and quote unquote nicer. So I went and bought a newer van and got us back into debt. I didn't even pray that hard about it. I allowed my eyes to blind me. I rationalized why I should get it and I only gave God about 25% in what is a huge decision.
My wife felt that is was no good but trusted my decision as the leader of our home and what do I do, make a bad choice. She kept talking about the van that our friends told us about. So tonight my friend and I are talking and he says, "Matt I knew it was a bad choice to get that van, and my wife and I were going to buy you that van next door had you asked. God told us to wait for you to ask." So now I see had I given God that 100% and given him my choices and steps, it would have worked out so much better. So tomorrow I am going to go back to the dealership and share my heart and ask the owner what he can do. He may say nothing, then again he may help. The main thing is I wouldn't even have to go had I allowed God to be in on the decision.
I say all of this to say, I got off the phone and apologized to my wife, then blew up at my wife over my frustration with dis-obedience and had my wife speak the truth that the reason I don't hear from God that much is I am tuned into to many other things, then I went for a walk. As I was walking I said out loud "alright God, I have obviously not been giving You Your proper respect and position and yet You have still blessed me and used me. What would it look like if I gave you all of me?"
So then I started to run, and I said "that is it God. I need to remove all the distractions that get in the way of me and You. I need to not spend as much time on the computer, or as much time watching TV, or playing my PSP. I need to spend more time in Your word, in prayer, with my children, with my wife, writing music, and serving God. Before I knew it I had run back to were we are staying and I wasn't that much out of breath. Part of that is from eating better and working out, the main reason is because I was so locked into God I didn't realize how fast I was running. I walked in sat down and started writing this.
So here is my challenge to all of us. Let's stop cheating God. We will give 100% at our job because we know there is a financial benefit and potential job growth. We will give 100% to a relationship because we hope we will get something in return; love, companionship, a soul mate, whatever. But when it comes to God we will give 50-70% and expect God to bless us and take care of us, and You know what is crazy He does. Now what could God do in us and through us if we gave Him 100%? I don't want to wonder anymore. I want to find out! I want to see with my own eyes what God will do with me when I give Him 100%. Here is why......
God has given me an amazing wife and daughters, I have given 50-70%
God has written amazing songs through me, I have given 50-70%
God has provided for my families every need, I have given 50-70%
God has used me to reach so many people for His glory, I have given 50-70%
I could keep going on and on but you get the point. So I hope something in my rambling has hit home for someone, if not it is good for me to declare that I have only been giving 50-70% to God and I want to give Him all 100%. So if you see me, don't hesitate to ask me if I am giving 100% and if you want email me and I will do the same if I see you. It is time that we as believers spur one another on like Hebrews 10 tells us to. That we push one another to deeper walks with Christ, not just pamper one another. That is what I have gotten the last 3 weeks people saying, "I see this in you and you need to work on it." Thank God for that, join me in giving 100% and lets see what amazing things God can and will do in our lives.
P.S. I know this sounds so simple and child like or your parents encouraging you to just give 100%. It is more than that, it is what God requires, not asks or hopes, He demands we give Him 100%, absolutely all of who we are and hope to ever be.
That is just my feelings.
Matt
Wednesday, April 23, 2008 : Exciting News + The Maombi Mission
First off I wanted to let everyone know I am doing fine since the wreck and thank you for all the prayers.
Second for those of you who haven't heard we are moving back to Wilmington, NC as soon as our house sells in Clarksville, so keep that in your prayers. I am excited to get back to be closer to my family, my band and we get to plug back in at our church, Port City Community Church. We have missed our Community of faith here desperately, but we are so thankful for the friendships we made and the lessons we learned in Clarksville.
Third I have begun the writing process and pre-production talks for a NEW ALBUM!!!! That is right sometime in October or November I hope to have a NEW ALBUM out. We will be sending out updates and other exciting things as we go through the process, so if you haven't given me your email yet send your email address to matt@mattblairmusic.com.
Now the big reason........
As many of you all know I am heavily involved with Congocast.org and the effort to raise awareness about the epidemic of rape against women and children that takes place there. Well starting April 27th-May 3rd there is another way for you to get involved and help out. Congocast.org is having the 2nd Maombi Mission, which Maombi is the Swahili word for prayer, a.k.a. a week long prayer mission for the Congo. Below is a note Evan Vetter, the director of the congocast.org sent out.
Please join us for the 2nd Ever Maombi Mission - week of prayer for DR Congo. We hope that you will help us have one full week of prayer for the DRC - It's really easy to be a part!
How to be a part:
1) Visit http://www.congocast.org/maombimission
2) Sign up for as many time slots as you are willing to commit to
3) Pray for the DR Congo and it's people at that time
There is a list of things that you can pray for on the website link above. Our goal is to have one unending week of prayer for the DR Congo. There is more information about the event below!
Thanks again for your help and continued support of Congocast!
Saturday, April 12, 2008 : CAR WRECK!!!
Hey everyone this is a quick blog to let you all know I was involved in a car accident yesterday. It was my fault, I thought the lights had turned red both ways and I was in the middle of the intersection making a left turn. I went to make my turn thinking the on coming traffic would stop at their red light and I hit a van coming through the intersection. It completely destroyed my front end and probably total our Suburban.
My greatest praise is Erin and the girls were not with me. My biggest prayer is that the gentleman I hit will be okay as he was taken to the hospital.
I am currently leading worship at a youth event and actually have to go right now and lead a session. I will post another blog with pictures of the car.
Please pray for a quick process of taking car of insurance and getting another mode of transportation. We are a 1 car family. Also pray for my sore body, but more than anything pray that we will be open to all that God is teaching us.
Matt
Saturday, April 5, 2008 : Radio Postponed until next week!
Sorry everyone. The host Bo Lane's son is sick so they are doing a re-run of an old show tonight. I will be on there next weekend at the same time. Between 9-10pm on www.theunsignedhour.com. Thanks for all the encouragement and support. Tune in next week.
Matt
Monday, February 11, 2008 : Matt Blair Featured on the Gospel Music Channel
Hey everyone I wanted to let you know that "Letting Go" is being featured on the Gospel Music Channel as part of their independent spotlight called "Download Mondays."
So now you all need to go to the page and click on "Share your thoughts..." to let them know how much you love the tune!
Just another opportunity to spread God through the music. Here is the link.